My Story

I was adopted in Japan and taken home to the most loving family. My life was perfect. I lived in a beautiful community and in a beautiful loving home. I knew I was Loved. Everything was perfect. But the one thing most people don’t know is that when you are adopted, even if it is with the most loving family, you still have a lot of questions about who you really are. There is a part of your life that is missing, and you want to know the answers to what your birth parents were like and what their lives were like, but most importantly why you were given away. There is this void somehow and you learn the importance of love in a different way. You love harder and more deeply because you understand just what it means to be given away, and yet loved. So, there I was in a perfect family, and it was until my father crossed over and my mother was diagnosed with dementia. 

My sister and I had what I thought was a loving relationship, until jealousy and hatred reared their ugly head. The one thing in the world that was the most important aspect of my life, and my anchor was about to be taken away in the cruelest way. 

My mother’s diagnosis was devastating, but what was about to happen was so much worse. My sister took control of all my mother’s assets, changed the will, the locks on my family home and my mother’s phone number. I was prevented from seeing her or calling her and was alienated from my niece. I was accused of abusing my mother who had retired and lived in California while I lived in Connecticut. This is where the story gets really bizarre, I was forced to engage a lawyer to defend my honesty, integrity and my love for my mother or I could be subjected to a potential jail term if the jury was convinced by her accusations. I lost everything I loved and valued most in one fail swoop. 

I was devastated and in total despair. Depression set in and I had days where I couldn’t get off the couch. But I had a powerful choice to make. Did allow my fear and devastation to rule my life or should I rise and create my own family and learn to love myself enough to detach myself from my adopted family and create another life. I did a lot of thinking, studying, evaluating, questioning, healing and transforming. I went back to school and read virtually every self- help book on the market. I took as many transformational programs, and courses as I could get my hands on. This was my journey back to love and forgiveness. I discovered a lot about myself and the power of love through this, my dark night of the soul. I learned Gratitude for what I had and was given and I learned about powerful transformation tools and mind set methods that could help others. I discovered my own soul’s gift and that was to help others find their own light and learn, as I did, how to create an extraordinary life. A life that no matter what shakes you, you can remain resilient and in love with life. Life is about choices. So, You’ll have to choose to take the first step as I did. 

Life doesn’t happen to you. It happens for you, and I’m here to plant a seed that will inspire you to move forward in life with enthusiastic hearts and a clear sense of wholeness. The important thing is that you are engaged in all your life experiences and I’m here letting you know that the important thing is letting each other know we’re here, reminding each other that we are all a part of a larger self. 

I realized one day that the purpose of my life was to free people from fear and I dedicated myself to that purpose and ministry. What is yours? How will you serve the world? What do they need that your talent can provide? That’s all you have to figure out. 

As someone who has done what you are about to do, I can tell you from experience that the effect you have on others is the most valuable currency there is. You already know who you are and that peace, that peace that we are all after, lies somewhere beyond personality, beyond invention and disguise, even beyond effort itself. 

You can play the game, fight the wars, play with form all you want, but to find real peace, you have to let the armor fall. Your need for acceptance can make you invisible in this world. Don’t let anything stand in the way of the light that shines through you. Risk being seen in all it’s glory. Your job is not to figure out how it’s going to happen for you, but to open the door in your head and when the doors open in real life, just walk through it. Don’t worry if you miss your cue. There will always be another door opening. They keep opening. 

Some of the greatest master classes I’ve ever attended and still am attending are in the LITUPP community. Wherever you are in your life, you will find what you are looking for here. This is some of the most important knowledge you can being into your life. Whatever community it may be, it is important to be a part of one and learn from mentors. These master classes have had a profound impact on thousands of lives, including mine. 

You are ready and able to do beautiful things in this world, and after you walk through those doors today, you will only ever have two choices: Love or fear. Choose Love, and don’t ever let fear turn you against your playful heart. 

It’s an honor and a privilege to be with you. I look forward to being your guide. I cannot wait to join you in your rise to an extraordinary life!

Jane Matanga